Denaiza 6-24-08
Denaiza 6-24-05
Dimitri 6-24-08
Dimitri 6-24-05
3 years ago today.........
I was sitting in an airport in Atlanta with my mom and two unhappy babies. The kids had landed in the US for the first time yesterday, in Miami, and we were trying to get to Boise. My mom was such a big help. I don't know what I would have done without her help....and her children's cold medicine!
I had waited SO long for the day when I could bring my kids home.....home to my family, and home to their new home in Idaho. This was a home that would always have food for them. It would always have a clean, soft bed for them to sleep in. A home that would always have arms ready to hug them and hold them and wipe away their tears. It was a very long year waiting for this day to happen.
And then.....it was there, but not at all what I had dreamed of. My daughter hated everybody near her. She would scream and bite and kick when we tried to love her. She was a very angry baby with a lot of hurt in her young heart. I remember thinking that I had made the biggest mistake of my life.
We got to Boise a couple days later and we were greeted by friends. Everyone was so happy to see the kids.
THen life started.....the diapers and the bottles and the late nights of screaming in bed. It was such an emotional rollercoaster for me.
We (Denaiza, Dimitri, and I) have come a long way from those first days in Idaho........a long way from all that frustration and hurt.
God is good. That is what we have to remember. Even when I doubt the decisions I have made, I remember that thankfully God is in control and His perfect plan is playing out.......I am just a tiny fragment of it. It is good to know that HE, the One who made the mountains of the earth, is in control. He will give me the strength to get over the mountains in life. He has, and He will continue to do so.
In some ways it seems like the past 3 years have gone by so quickly. I look at the pictures of when the kids were babies and small toddlers and it seems like yesterday that they were that little. It seems like just yesterday that I was calling Haiti daily to see what the progress was on the adoption papers. It seems like only moments ago when my mom grasped her grandchildren up into her arms for the first time in that Miami airport.
And yet, in other ways, it seems like it has been forever ago since we started our lives together. It was so long ago that I hardly remember when the last time was that I was able to take a shower without one of the kids walking in needing something in the middle of it. It was so long ago that I was able to watch the Food Network instead of Sesame Street. It seems like forever ago that I went a day without changing a diaper or helping on the potty.......but those are all things that I don't mind.
So, here we sit today, in Texas (of all places), eating Cheerios for breakfast, getting ready to play make-believe with a kitchen and dolls and plastic food. Both kids talking a mile a minute. Discussing life's most important topics at the breakfast table....... like why there are so many bugs in Texas...... why that airplane flying by doesn't have Grandma inside it......... why Jesus died on the cross for us...... why Daddy had to go to work and can't play with us........ why Mommy didn't brush her hair before breakfast.......
They may be here contemplating these things.....but I sit here in awe. Looking at their little faces.....with complete admiration in God's work and His amazing plan, full of love, for each of our lives.
How lucky we are to have a Father that cares! He cares about the birds and He cares even more about those who were orphaned in Haiti.
I would have to say God has done great works in the past 3 years to bring us to where we are!
Sitting in the Atlanta airport 3 years ago I would never in my wildest imagination have thought this is were we would be today...........
I was sitting in an airport in Atlanta with my mom and two unhappy babies. The kids had landed in the US for the first time yesterday, in Miami, and we were trying to get to Boise. My mom was such a big help. I don't know what I would have done without her help....and her children's cold medicine!
I had waited SO long for the day when I could bring my kids home.....home to my family, and home to their new home in Idaho. This was a home that would always have food for them. It would always have a clean, soft bed for them to sleep in. A home that would always have arms ready to hug them and hold them and wipe away their tears. It was a very long year waiting for this day to happen.
And then.....it was there, but not at all what I had dreamed of. My daughter hated everybody near her. She would scream and bite and kick when we tried to love her. She was a very angry baby with a lot of hurt in her young heart. I remember thinking that I had made the biggest mistake of my life.
We got to Boise a couple days later and we were greeted by friends. Everyone was so happy to see the kids.
THen life started.....the diapers and the bottles and the late nights of screaming in bed. It was such an emotional rollercoaster for me.
We (Denaiza, Dimitri, and I) have come a long way from those first days in Idaho........a long way from all that frustration and hurt.
God is good. That is what we have to remember. Even when I doubt the decisions I have made, I remember that thankfully God is in control and His perfect plan is playing out.......I am just a tiny fragment of it. It is good to know that HE, the One who made the mountains of the earth, is in control. He will give me the strength to get over the mountains in life. He has, and He will continue to do so.
In some ways it seems like the past 3 years have gone by so quickly. I look at the pictures of when the kids were babies and small toddlers and it seems like yesterday that they were that little. It seems like just yesterday that I was calling Haiti daily to see what the progress was on the adoption papers. It seems like only moments ago when my mom grasped her grandchildren up into her arms for the first time in that Miami airport.
And yet, in other ways, it seems like it has been forever ago since we started our lives together. It was so long ago that I hardly remember when the last time was that I was able to take a shower without one of the kids walking in needing something in the middle of it. It was so long ago that I was able to watch the Food Network instead of Sesame Street. It seems like forever ago that I went a day without changing a diaper or helping on the potty.......but those are all things that I don't mind.
So, here we sit today, in Texas (of all places), eating Cheerios for breakfast, getting ready to play make-believe with a kitchen and dolls and plastic food. Both kids talking a mile a minute. Discussing life's most important topics at the breakfast table....... like why there are so many bugs in Texas...... why that airplane flying by doesn't have Grandma inside it......... why Jesus died on the cross for us...... why Daddy had to go to work and can't play with us........ why Mommy didn't brush her hair before breakfast.......
They may be here contemplating these things.....but I sit here in awe. Looking at their little faces.....with complete admiration in God's work and His amazing plan, full of love, for each of our lives.
How lucky we are to have a Father that cares! He cares about the birds and He cares even more about those who were orphaned in Haiti.
I would have to say God has done great works in the past 3 years to bring us to where we are!
Sitting in the Atlanta airport 3 years ago I would never in my wildest imagination have thought this is were we would be today...........
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